the outpouring of a broken but healing heart

As a broken vessel I have lived
Alone in my depressed state of independence
Thrown to the ground by my freedom of choice
Knowing only the pain of self-rejection
No peace found in the silence.

I will

I will remain open to God's directions, not governed by my feelings alone. I will not jump into anything without first taking into account the consequences. I will listen seriously to the advice of people who have proven themselves to be wise. I will not make excuses for my mistakes. I will trust and believe God for the right answers at the right time. I will not let my worry overshadow the King's power. I will worship Him at all times.

I will always be His daughter.

What I learned in 2010

More than any love, His love is consuming.
When the world sees my weakness, He sees my beauty.
When all my hope has been placed on one, and it is crushed, He takes my face in his hands and looks into my eyes. He sees my soul and fulfills all of my hopes.
I am found faultless in his sight. In fact, I am righteous, bright, crowned with glory!
I am lacking nothing. Everything about me is wonderful because He made me.
I have much less faith than I thought, and He is much more faithful than I thought.
He knows what I need before I do.
He has the map of my life laid out before Him, and he is watching me with joy as I walk along it. When I fall or go off the path, he sets up an obstacle that makes me give up on my strength and turn to Him for direction.