Lone beauty

Fresh or stale?

I noticed that the majority of my posts are about me. Go figure, right? It's my blog, so why not have things written about me? But even so, I can't help but think that all the sad, emotional, FEELING things I have written are overplayed? I am a girl, but that does not give me some certification to limit the blog-world to viewing only my self-assessment rantings. Now, I could try to draw your interest by making up a colorful story about some random animal or person I don't know - but that is not me. I should not pretend to be something I am not. There are so many people in this world,and each one of us has something good to offer. How often do we offer stale bread because we try to be like the "interesting" people? If we all try to be interesting in ways that are borrowed from another person's personality, the bread is stale! It's old news! A waste of the uniqueness that God put inside of you on purpose! Of course, this is about more than your writing style :) The things I write about and think about are going to be different than the next woman or man (more likely different than the man ;) At the same time, I want to bring more to the table than my diary entries. I want to offer fresh bread, inspired not by others, or by my emotions, but by my Creator.

Somehow He loves me

This day has presented me with heartache beyond my coping level. I have broken down silently inside and out loud in a gas station parking lot. My self pity and loneliness have made me forget the one steady thing in my life - God. He's watched me every moment, holding my hand while I cry, listening to me complain and ask Him the same questions over and over. He's gazed at me with compassion as I pour out my heart in worship and dance, loving me more than I can ever realize. Why He has not given up on me, gotten fed up with me, I cannot understand.
Somehow, He loves me. He loves me in my good and bad times. He loves me when I smile and when I frown. He loves me when I'm laughing and when I'm crying. He loves me when I love Him and when I ignore Him. God longs for me every single moment. He waits excitedly for me to come and spend time with Him. He has eyes only for me. He thinks that I am the most beautiful girl in the world! He will defend and protect me from those who seek to hurt me. He gave His life to protect me.